That's okay, you could touch yourself. Totally touch yourself, self-touching is encouraged.

[ and it hits her like a brick in the face that he's totally doing that right now, doing exactly what she's doing and god damn if that doesn't get her worked up. she can picture it, and is going to take her own advice and let her hands slide lower, slipping two fingers inside herself and fucking in and out of herself within the confines of her panties. ]

It's just — me you couldn't touch. And I'd ask you to, I'd beg you too — because I'd love to feel your fingers in me — but you couldn't. 'C — 'cause that'd defeat the entire purpose of...of... [ what was she talking about? fuck it, it didn't matter. ]